Resurfacing

You would think I would learn -- but no. I did as I do every time. This is not a sign of intelligence on my part.

I know when it happens. It begins with a sudden onset of congestion.
Once my head is good and filled to capacity a cough doesn't want to be left out so bring that on.
Then we graduate from a cough to a bark -- one so deep and out of control that I feel as if I've cracked a few ribs along the way.

That's when the "do I call the doctor" debate begins

My stubborn streak rises first and declares -- independence! I can do this on my own! I can beat some silly sinus infection on my own! Everything else get out of the way! Independence is here!

My common sense sits back and watches the chaos my body is in before suggesting that perhaps I will feel much better if I go ahead and call my doctor so I can get started on an antibiotic.

After almost two weeks of misery common sense finally wins out. Thank goodness!
Regret rises and expresses sorrow for not listening to common sense sooner.
Independence scoffs at it all, declaring it can win if the rest of me would just be willing to wait it out. Apparently it has something more to say but another cough attack hits, thus silencing further useless dialogue.

And so I've done it yet again
... I've allowed stubbornness and independence to rule when common sense is the far better choice.

This is not something I am proud of. I far prefer to present a me that has it all together. That being said, I'm not aware of any time I truly have it all together. So there you have it.

So I've been on the antibiotic a couple days and it is starting to work its magic. The cough is determined to wait  a little longer. It does not appreciate the help being offered. The rest of me wants to choke it out and say ENOUGH!

It feels like I'm resurfacing to walk among the living again. Ok so my head is still rather full with infection. That will go away soon.

I notice the morning fog hanging low over my neighborhood this morning. I can relate to that. I'm trying to get moving this morning and, while I am feeling much better, there is still a large part of me that wants to allow the fog to drape over me for a bit longer.

As I fade off in to another nap I hear myself saying: "NEXT time I will not wait this long. It is ridiculous to allow myself to get so sick."

Yep, next time ...

Enjoying the journey,

Debra

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Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.

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