Call If You Need Anything

It was a busy morning. Now don't get me wrong -- I haven't done a blasted thing! But it became a morning where I was forced to do that which I can't stand ... "call if you need anything"

I am sure I am not the only person who has battled with this. I cannot stand to ask for help. Anyone with me on that?

And I think now more than ever I have been particularly stubborn about it because I want to prove that I can handle living alone. I do NOT need to go in to a rehab center.

You see, while I am out on medical disability -- I have an injury to add to the list. My Meniscus is torn on both sides of my right knee. Hey -- I figure if I'm gonna do it I might as well do it up right! Yep ... right.

So I'm awaiting my surgical consultation and pending surgery and am home alone using a walker to get around. The doctor ordered a wheelchair and it is being delivered this afternoon.

It happened.
I reached a point I realized there were things I could not do.
OUCH to my sense of stubbornness and pride. I hired someone to come in and clean this morning -- MUCH needed as I can't do any of that right now.
I had to contact my brother to come out and attend to some things in the house.

Oh my goodness have my stubbornness and pride taken direct hits today.

And yet in my heart I remember how passionate I used to be in preaching on how we are called to serve one another in love.  How many times did I counsel with people who battled needing help and I pointed out what a gift it is we give others when we allow them to do something for us! All the time we spend doing for others -- we must realize so, too, do others love getting to do for us.
It's a cyclical thing.

Serving one another is a beautiful thing -- if we allow it to be so. I think on all the hatred and darkness that is trying to envelop our world. I don't know about you but when I get to give to another my heart is filled to overflowing with joy.

As we think on the world and all the hatred and darkness that tries to envelop us -- it is a great part of giving back to God's people in God's world. It is a conscious decision to have a personal attitude adjustment that will, in turn, help others in our midst to desire their own attitude adjustment.

So I did just that today -- willingly adjusted my attitude, allowed others who did things I needed them to do, and opened my heart back to JOY. What a wonderful day it has been! I don't deny that my leg hurts, is swollen and even my foot is numb -- but my heart is full of love, gratitude and joy. One of my favorite authors, Henri Nouwen, says this: "Joy does not simply happen to us. We have to choose joy and keep choosing it every day."

SO TRUE!

So I will go in to tomorrow choosing JOY, an open heart willing to receive and a spirit of gratitude.

ONE OF MY FAVORITE AUTHORS!!!!

I truly am enjoying the journey,

Debra

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